Is this just getting older?
I can’t get away from this rain
I’m starting to think that’s it’s me
I wanna just create things
But the longer it takes I feel drained
Can’t remember a day I’ve been sober
Not in a place to take blame
Any more weight I might break
Tell me do you feel the same
Guess we all go the same way
I’m in a bit of a mess here
Count to 10 and hope to disappear
I never did my homework
Could I have been more than this
Finding a way exist
Within a world with no risk
Forcing a shoe that won’t fit
I spend most the day stoned and
Making excuses for it
Saying it helped to write this
But on the real, I’m tight lipped
Shooting a shot that I’ll miss
And it’s so far from near
Why the hell am I still here?
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
I know that it will be alright
If it’s not, then we’re fucked aren’t we?
I can’t help myself but cry
Every time that I realise
Maybe I’ll never find my smile
Who’s to blame? Well that’s on me
Now that the weather is colder
Nothing is masking this pain
The summer was here but won’t stay
We are inside like all day
Regretting the things that we say
And it takes a toll yeah
The conversation won’t end
Being a rock for your friends
Cracks on the surface don’t mend
We only break we don’t bend
And you’d think it was so clear
But I can’t see nothing but the fear
I’m feeling so bloated
Thinking a salad won’t do
Might as well open up two
Locking myself in my room
Hoping that this all ends soon
And no one will notice
What I will put myself through
Coz they will hate themselves too
Isn’t it mad what we do
Pretending to win but just lose
And it’s so far from near
Why the hell am I still here?
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
I know that it will be alright
If it’s not, then we’re fucked aren’t we?
I can’t help myself but cry
Every time that I realise
Maybe I’ll never find my smile
Who’s to blame? Well that’s on me
Too many things on my mind
To process moments of life
There’s some days I lose my drive
Then some can’t control the fire
I’m aware that things take time
But I’m not a patient guy
Maybe if I wait I’ll find
Resemblance of peace of mind
But this is just getting older
Running away from our past
Knowing the calm it won’t last
Being a mouse in this grass
Feeling the snakes behind us
I’m searching for closure
But nothing is healing these scars
When I open up they just laugh
Saying if they had just half
Then nothing would ever be dark
Is it new me, new year?
Or just the same old blue sphere
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
I know that it will be alright
If it’s not, then we’re fucked aren’t we?
I can’t help myself but cry
Every time that I realise
Maybe I’ll never find my smile
Who’s to blame? Well that’s on me
