I know that I fucked up when I
told you I’m afraid of heights.
It made you wanna test my courage.
You made me climb a cliff at night.
You wanted me to jump and I declined.
You called me a coward. I replied,
“I don’t wanna live forever,
but I don’t wanna die tonight.”
When the black water ate you up,
like a sugarcube in a teacup,
I got the point you were making
when I held my breath til you came up
There’s been a run of fires downtown
on half built construction sites.
I know you never liked a townhouse.
I’ve seen you climb a crane at night.
If they ever catch you at it,
I know you’d want me to be proud
that you took a rich man’s dream
and brought it with you on your way down.
Cause one man’s dream is another man’s death.
I remember when you told me that.
Didn’t know what to say so I just laughed,
but now I know it’s not funny.
I never rode a motorcycle.
I never smoked a cigarette.
I wanna live a vibrant life,
but I wanna die a boring death.
I know I was a disappointment,
knew you wanted me to take a risk.
Not everybody gets the chance to live
a life that isn’t dangerous.
You called me a crybaby,
but you’re the one who got teary
telling me what you believe,
how we’re stuck in entropy.
How it hurts to hope.
Oh it hurts to hope for more.
Oh it hurts to hope the future
will be better than before.
